Autumn, Ahh yes...the season of my birth, a time when all things begin to die, only to begin again.
As Mayo Angelo so aptly described it (I was paraphrasing) in one of my favorite poems: "Late October".
Perhaps that is why I have such deep feelings to this particular season. Then again, it could be the amazing color, the huge piles of leaves or the wonderful smell of those very same leaves as they burn, their smoke telling a story for another time, another place as painted on the evening sky. A golden corn field, newly harvested at sundown, so lovely in it's aloneness.
A season to spend out of doors, jacket season and time to break out the old jeans again after spending the summer in shorts. The big, ominous, forbidding sky, foretells the coming of the snow clouds, thundering just over the horizon.
Fall, a time for sorrow? Perhaps, yet hope, it lingers long in the leaf smoke.... it's forgiveness weaves it's way through golden cornstalks as the two lane farm track winds up through the hills, down through the valleys so full of color, crossing the vibrant little stream that leads to home.....and yet, there is more.
Autumn is the season I found God....
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Bloated gasbag
God I feel bloated, gassy and unpleasantly fat. I am a skinny guy with the sole exception of having a disproportionally large stomach and it actually is stretched to the point that it physically hurts. I'm not kidding...
I have tried to eat and exercise sensibly but in the last year I let it slip. I was eating way too much ice cream and sweet stuff. I was also binging on, get this: cereal! Yep eating like 3 rather large bowls before I laid down for bed and having 6 or 8 bowls a day. It not only was comfort food but since I've had some serious stomach issues over the years and it's been worse lately, I found it easy to eat and digest....so I thought.
It turns out the culprit for that rather pregnant looking gut I have was not the ice cream or candy....nope, it was the cereal. Turns out that wheat based stuff turns two a paste like substance and coats your insides (so I was told)
So now I'm on Day 3 of The Gardens Of Life Raw Cleanse....what a freaking JOY that has been. It just makes me feel sweaty yet cold clammy, I also have a monster headache and feel lousy in general. I'm also taking large doses of 100% pure ACAI JUICE Liquid and Capsule Supplement. I will admit though I am going through an icky (yea, I said Icky!!) physiological adjustment, I am starting to notice positive changes.
I feel less bloated, I am eating nothing but fruit, vegetables and Gluten Free Cereals and stuff. I also feel much more energetic...some of you will not be pleased with having to deal with my energy in the morning. I am a morning person typically but I have so much energy I don't know what to do with it.
I'm trying to just feel better, have more energy and be healthier but I do believe I need to lose 20-25 lbs to truly achieve those goals. I've never, ever tried to "diet" before but I look at this experiment not as being on a diet but changing to a daily healthier diet. We'll see how it goes....
I have tried to eat and exercise sensibly but in the last year I let it slip. I was eating way too much ice cream and sweet stuff. I was also binging on, get this: cereal! Yep eating like 3 rather large bowls before I laid down for bed and having 6 or 8 bowls a day. It not only was comfort food but since I've had some serious stomach issues over the years and it's been worse lately, I found it easy to eat and digest....so I thought.
It turns out the culprit for that rather pregnant looking gut I have was not the ice cream or candy....nope, it was the cereal. Turns out that wheat based stuff turns two a paste like substance and coats your insides (so I was told)
So now I'm on Day 3 of The Gardens Of Life Raw Cleanse....what a freaking JOY that has been. It just makes me feel sweaty yet cold clammy, I also have a monster headache and feel lousy in general. I'm also taking large doses of 100% pure ACAI JUICE Liquid and Capsule Supplement. I will admit though I am going through an icky (yea, I said Icky!!) physiological adjustment, I am starting to notice positive changes.
I feel less bloated, I am eating nothing but fruit, vegetables and Gluten Free Cereals and stuff. I also feel much more energetic...some of you will not be pleased with having to deal with my energy in the morning. I am a morning person typically but I have so much energy I don't know what to do with it.
I'm trying to just feel better, have more energy and be healthier but I do believe I need to lose 20-25 lbs to truly achieve those goals. I've never, ever tried to "diet" before but I look at this experiment not as being on a diet but changing to a daily healthier diet. We'll see how it goes....
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Whoa Nelly
Talk about getting blown away or around or over....it's freakin' howling out there. Of course the "Super Big Blow Of The Century or Maybe even EVER 2010" all the news outlets were predicting did not come to pass once again leaving all the morons who want to make all types of weather "News Events" looking like Jack Asses. I love it....the schools here in Holland MI (where I'm visiting) closed because the threat of serious weather (including tornadoes) did actually exist but that is where sane, well thought out decision making ended.
The local News affiliates took over the airwaves with their Bubble Headed Weather Experts for 2 whole hours, going over and over the "potential" weather problems that could occur if the weather did indeed get severe, which of course didn't happen. Time and again we had wonderful shots of tree branches blowing in the wind. Hey, I like watching trees blow in the wind as much as the next guy but lets face it....it isn't really that amazing, interesting or (get this!!) newsworthy. At one time they were actually having news people on the scene all over West Michigan hold their Mics out in the wind to compare ferocity of said blow!! I truly loved the drama of the camera panning past all the blowing tree branches as the voice over gets very serious about "wind damage" only to stop on an overturned....plastic lawn chair on someones deck!! I could hardly hold back the tears.
The local News affiliates took over the airwaves with their Bubble Headed Weather Experts for 2 whole hours, going over and over the "potential" weather problems that could occur if the weather did indeed get severe, which of course didn't happen. Time and again we had wonderful shots of tree branches blowing in the wind. Hey, I like watching trees blow in the wind as much as the next guy but lets face it....it isn't really that amazing, interesting or (get this!!) newsworthy. At one time they were actually having news people on the scene all over West Michigan hold their Mics out in the wind to compare ferocity of said blow!! I truly loved the drama of the camera panning past all the blowing tree branches as the voice over gets very serious about "wind damage" only to stop on an overturned....plastic lawn chair on someones deck!! I could hardly hold back the tears.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Dayton Ohio 2:34am
Ah yes, sitting up wide awake in the middle of the night, once again. Only now I've come to embrace the insomnia. Why fight it, 'ya know? And the funny this is that I have come to enjoy the moments of solitude to reflect on the life I have today.....
A life once filled with fear, uncertainty, pain, discontent....uncomfortable silences. No more, I've find joy in this life I once despised. Hard to explain how grateful I feel for the transformation but I feel so committed to never....not ever, wasting another single, solitary moment of this time I have here on earth feeling sorry for myself. Self pity is no picnic and never has feeling sorry for myself lent itself to feeling better later on...so why bother!?
As the title of this entry states, I am in my old home state of Ohio once again. I am visiting my sister's family this weekend. Elizabeth and I are beginning a new tradition of attending the Ohio State-Purdue together every year together. She is of course an Buckeye fan and I, a Purdue Football Season Ticket Holder. we always have gone to the game every other year in West Lafayette but she suggested last Winter that we also attend the game in Columbus together as well. Though I wasn't too thrilled about going back to Ohio Stadium again (I had already vowed along w/my father to never attend another game there again!) I couldn't pass up the opportunity to spend some time with my 'Lil Sis.
Having just now realized that the alarm is set for a mere 2 hours from now, I think it in my best interest to try to get a bit more sleep. A report on the game to follow....if I survive another adventure into the abyss...that deep, dark, dangerous place they call "The Shoe"!!
A life once filled with fear, uncertainty, pain, discontent....uncomfortable silences. No more, I've find joy in this life I once despised. Hard to explain how grateful I feel for the transformation but I feel so committed to never....not ever, wasting another single, solitary moment of this time I have here on earth feeling sorry for myself. Self pity is no picnic and never has feeling sorry for myself lent itself to feeling better later on...so why bother!?
As the title of this entry states, I am in my old home state of Ohio once again. I am visiting my sister's family this weekend. Elizabeth and I are beginning a new tradition of attending the Ohio State-Purdue together every year together. She is of course an Buckeye fan and I, a Purdue Football Season Ticket Holder. we always have gone to the game every other year in West Lafayette but she suggested last Winter that we also attend the game in Columbus together as well. Though I wasn't too thrilled about going back to Ohio Stadium again (I had already vowed along w/my father to never attend another game there again!) I couldn't pass up the opportunity to spend some time with my 'Lil Sis.
Having just now realized that the alarm is set for a mere 2 hours from now, I think it in my best interest to try to get a bit more sleep. A report on the game to follow....if I survive another adventure into the abyss...that deep, dark, dangerous place they call "The Shoe"!!
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