This blog was named Shell Shock Serenade for a very good reason....Shell Shocked was exactly the way I felt when I came to after my suicide attempt into the brand new world of living SOBER. I was totally and completely in shock...paralyzed with fear, afraid of my own shadow and very nervous and unsettled about what the future might hold. Just a few short days before, I had made a very real decision to take my own life and failed...now I was facing life and all that entails without booze or drugs to NUMB the way for the first time EVER.
I really was in over my head but little did I know at the time but a Power....one MUCH greater then myself was looking out for me. That would be GOD and I was NOT a believer at that time. Even after defying the odds and surviving the suicide attempt, I still looked at living life as a BAD THING!!!
This evening I chose to change the cover photo for the blog...a picture from an upcoming movie about the Western Theater of the Civil War.