Somewhat typically for me....my impending surgery tomorrow doesn't really seem like a reality. It has been such a long wait since this was first diagnosed (nearly 4 months) and 7 months since the original injury in early March.
Oddly, though I slept only a couple hours last night...I had vivid dreams of surgeries gone bad. It was spooky and not a typical reaction for me Pre-surgery. I usually feel calm and quite prepared before I have an operation.
This one has been a real challenge for several reasons....one being the length of time it has taken to get rid of the infection. This is by far the most serious and time consuming surgery I have undertaken including my several back surgeries. The possibility of amputation hovers just out of reach yet I am very aware that it is a possibility.
I cannot afford to waste any energy worrying about things that may or may not occur...No, the focus must stay on the present reality which is serious enough as it is.
All things considered I am ready and prepared as I am going to get. I am anxious to get this show on the road and begin the journey towards healing instead of just treading water while I wait.
I will try and update Shell Shock as I am able. They are saying 2-3 days in the hospital and then a long recovery period at home. No walking for a couple of months and a good estimate is 6 months total for healing.
I'll try and blog further later on today....
Good luck and be safe, buddy. Praying for you and your well-being.
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