It was BY FAR...the worst moment of my life waking up and realizing that I wasn't dead. I had no idea what I was going to do...NONE. I was so afraid, lonely....and ALIVE. I didn't know how to proceed...I had no place to go...all that was good at one time in my life had been destroyed by my addiction. I was a hollow shell of a human being...a Hollow Man, morally, physically and spiritually bankrupt.
And now the only sensible thing that I could think to do, Killing Myself... had failed. What was I going to do? I clearly remember that early morning and the long day that followed in my hospital room pondering my future...frankly I still thought all was lost...I was hopeless.
Little did I know that in my darkest moment...the dawn of a Brand New Life.....was just around the corner.