Disheartening Reality...

Yea...I am one sore puppy right now. I am hurting from over exertion. I was working in the yard yesterday, my back, neck, knees, feet...you name it they are all in rare, painful form. This is the kind of pain that I've had continually in the past that had me thinking death was better then living like this. I could still get there if I thought about it too much.


It's excruciating...and enough to make even the sanest, strongest person beg for mercy from God. I hate this...it messes with your head....it literally feels like you're loosing your mind when the waves of pain wash over and through you...then repeated full shocks of pain in specific extremities...i have always called those shocks..."Jolts".


I am having difficulty sitting in this chair as I write this...it literally feels as though though the lower half of my body will separate from the top half....in other words, just break in two.


OK...not sure why I felt I had to share that disheartening reality with all of you tonight but I am being honest so there it is.


The next post will be more positive kiddies...I promise!