Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Less Then Certain...
For those of you who know me this shall come as no surprise...I am an emotional person. I tend to wear my self, my whole self on my sleeve...for the entire world to see. Yes I have learned some discretion in the last couple of years (meaning I am no longer a loose cannon w/my emotions) realizing that there is a time and place for everything. I no long "go off" on an emotional tangent without out giving it some thought, without reasoning it through.
It is still an intense way to feel each and everyday of one's life and saying that I am intense is another accurate way to describe me.To the point that some of my in your face, straight forward behavior has frightened or intimidated some people in recent years. I can assure you that has never been my intention. I just telling it like it is and now I've learned to take some of the edge off my comments as time as gone by.
I bring this up this morning because I feel a little outta sorts from some recent interaction and I am not sure how I feel about it. On one hand, I do not feel that I have over-stepped any boundaries...I was honest, perhaps even blunt but I was sharing how I really felt about something, it was important enough to me to do so, especially considering that I had repressed the urge to do so on another occasion when I felt something was being incorrectly assumed or stereo-typed.
It is troubling because these days I don't like to hurt people or their feelings. I try hard to be a good listener, loving and understanding. At times I feel that means pointing out less then pleasant situations. And that does not always go well.
I have also learned that communication by text, private message, blog comment, email, etc can cause issues in itself because of the one-dimensional nature of that form of communicating. You can't immediately ask for clarification, there is no tone of voice to hear and discern sarcasm or anger or annoyance...it is easy to jump to an inaccurate conclusion and that happens quite frequently and things get blown out of proportion.
So I am left feeling a bit odd about commenting on blog right now and am not sure I will proceed....