Tuesday, April 10, 2012
An Evaluation...of Sorts!
I've given some thought occasionally to ending this blog, Shell Shock Serenade. These thoughts usually come out of the blue but are usually provoked or motivated by the same thought: "I am sharing too much of my self to the public". But I usually come to the conclusion after 1307 posts, most of them extremely personal...it's really doesn't matter anymore...it's too late to stop because the "damage" (for lack of a better term) has already been done.
Besides...I really haven't anything to hide and can't afford to hide if I did because I need to c'come clean" for my own sake...which I think was the original reason I started this journey into the blog world in the first place...I'd put this stuff out there where everyone could see, then I would HAVE to be accountable for it.
And though it admittedly feels weird and awkward at times knowing I really have no true personal/private life...I haven't any real regrets. I think it has been worthwhile for several reasons...it has made me open up and be accountable, there is something cathartic about purging all these "secret, un-touchable topics and things" and hanging them on the proverbial clothes line for the whole neighborhood (in this case "the WORLD") to see.
But I do think it only natural to have second thoughts and/or want to change direction and decide that the benefit of writing Shell-Shock has run it's course and shut it down. But I can't ever really get to that place where I have done it. Why?
I suppose because I have so much invested here and I realize that I am still reaping benefits from sharing. I get feed back stating that various folks have been helped by what they've read here. Well that alone is enough for me to keep plugging.
Though I will admit that I have "mailed in" some posts with less then the usual zest & zeal of most posts, mostly I still feel as passionate about writing Shell Shock as I ever have. Sure...I periodically feel as if I've hit a wall and have no where else to go and then something special happens and I think I could never shut this thing down. And that is the place where I am at today.
So for another day at least... Shell Shock Serenade will continue!