I think it's kind of a wanting to be god thing..I want to control what happens and when it happens. I don't relax so well and really don't do "letting go" well at all.
An example: I have to get up very early tomorrow and leave. I noticed just a few minutes ago it's snowed some since I plowed. I was hoping it hadn't because I really don't want to have to do it before I leave. That means getting up even earlier (already the alarm is set for 4a) and plowing at 5a.
Now that I've seen the snow I'm agonizing over it. See I want to plow now so I don't have to tomorrow and it has me wigging and out of my comfort zone right now. Why? It shouldn't be a big deal but it is some flaw I have in the way Iplan and process and cope with change I guess.
Strange stuff, I know....