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Friday, March 18, 2011

Until Then...

A whirlwind of thoughts...literally just flittering, whipping to and rhyme or reason...whew, overwhelming a bit. Organizing thoughts was never a strong suit of mine though post-it-notes went a long way in helping me with that when they were introduced, hehe.

But I now have the main issues related to going to the Mayo Clinic narrowed down mainly just to the trip itself, expenses. There is plenty of availability at the hotels downtown so that is not an issue.

Cat care and the house situation is taken's funny how much changes when you have folks who really WANT to help you. I am quite fortunate in that regard, it makes me wonder why I was so hell-bent in my previous life to push people away. That is such a sad, sad scenario looking back on it...because people WANTED to help then, be a part of my life then...nope, I wasn't having ANY part of it. I was the LONE WOLF, Independent, The Individual, I can Handle Anything...I was a lonely, broken man...that is what I was. Foolish, unrealistic, thinking quite frankly that bordered on the insane at times.

Today, well I'm hopeful...I have some nerves going haywire yet I know that this will come together. So I just take things as they come and we'll keep moving forward.

My thoughts are scattered a bit, more then normal so I'm going to shut this down before I get to turned around. Until then...

Oh...When I was a boy I used to dream of some very distinct and for my age and background rather unusual things. Wolves were one of the things I used to dream about regularly. So I just included a picture of an old friend...


  1. Well, you know I'm kinda partial to wolves myself ;o).

    I wish you nothing but the best through this, my friend. Very gald you are planning to go somewhere where you should get answers and guidance. I have faith that you will get through this as well. You have the spirit of a survivor.

    Be blessed.

  2. I'm so glad that you're going to be able to get some care at Mayo. I think they look at the total sum of the problem and not just every little piece. It's what I tried to always train my trainees to see. A person is not the sum of their symptoms, and neither are "disease" processes. The symptoms are a side effect of something bigger. I always taught and evaluated the ones I trained for their ability to be perceptive, and be a bit of a detective.

    I think now, more and more doctors are getting a clue that it does no good to simply treat the symptoms (which is fine while you're looking for the source), but finding the underlying reason will always lesson or eliminate the symptoms.

    Oh yes, and don't forget to look at your perishables before you go, no need to come home to a stinky fridge!

  3. I have found that the "not-knowing", the unknown... is perhaps one of the most difficult situations to deal with. Good to hear that you are set for the Mayo Clinic. Once you know what you are up against, what you are dealing with more specifically, then you and your doc(s)have something to fight... draw up a battle plan and attack, so to speak.

  4. It is re-assuring, going to doubt about that. And you got the second part right as well, find out the root cause of the tumors, what they are, the pain, leisens, etc. Then when all the info is in, the causes known we'll formulate a game plan and do just what you said: attack them. I feel a little cheesy using war terminology in my personal life when we are actually at war but that is the way I feel. I am at war with foreign things in my body, that makes me feel really uncomfortable and I want them out of there. Hence even more motivation...