I am almost afraid to think to much about such things because I just get frustrated with the fact that I am no closer now to knowing what's really going on in this world then I was before. I often think it is better to just LIVE...let the chips fall where they may. I suppose in some ways that is what I actually end up doing.
I once felt like I was an oddball, different then the rest of kids at school. Then as an adult I felt the very same way...I was a Square Peg in a Round Hole World. By the time I tried to end my own life, I was in complete rebellion against the whole world. I felt so different from everyone else that I just couldn't relate to anything anymore.
That view has softened as I have found a life of recovery. I also look at the world differently, I look for the similarities with others these days instead of the differences. I realized that perhaps I wasn't that different after all. Then I saw all the moron's dancing in the street to the news that Bin Laden was dead as if world peace had been declared.
Now I wonder...