I have to admit that at one time I was convinced that I had everything figured out...I knew WHAT I had to do in life to make it work but executing that plan it was the problem. My natural faults and flaws would keep getting in the way. I believed this and lived this way for many years. I realized today that I don't and never DID have this figured out. No...I am constantly surprised...even amazed at the new realizations and discoveries that occur all the time.
One thing that I will definitely admit is that my perception of the world was so limited...today I realize that I had only been scratching the surface of what was real, of what was possible in this life. It was a profound discovery for me.
In my daily scripture reading 1Corinthians 13:13 came up: "Three things will last forever-faith, hope and love- and the greatest of these is LOVE" (NLT).
Now this seems a straight forward enough observation but for me, it meant so much MORE. I finally felt redemption...that was what being SAVED was in my mind..being loved. I was LOVED...and I could love...I could give it and receive it...this was a profound realization because I never thought I could. I now KNOW this is true...it is the TRUTH, really. And I believe itbelieved with all my heart
You see I felt totally incapable in the end of my active addiction of LOVE. Of receiving it, feeling it even believing in it...I thought LOVE was a JOKE...worse yet a cruel joke and the joke was most definitely on me.
Today when I read that scripture in 1st Corinthians it makes perfect sense because it makes such perfect sense...and I believe quite strongly in all three of those things...Faith, Hope and Love. They are a cornerstone of the foundation of my life today. Everything else that I am is built on the ROCK of those foundation stones put their by God.
All I had to do was accept it and BELIEVE...and that was a much more difficult task then it should have been but that is what has to happen for your life to change. only then could I begin that life-long climb toward HIM. And he has been waiting for me, hand outstretched all my life. And as I sit here this morning at my grandfather's desk I can honestly quote that Grand Funk Railroad Song that I blogged about a week or so ago...
I can Feel HIM in the Morning...THIS MORNING!
(PHOTO: Kathy Tomson)
I never want to have everything figured out, that is just to mundane for me. I want to be surprised, to have to work to find myself and discover new things about myself, I never knew, I never knew.
ReplyDeleteThe context I was referring to when I said I thought I had everything figured out was that I was convinced I knew what I was doing, I knew what was best for myself, that everyone one else could piss off because I really knew what was BEST for me and how to achieve that. The reality was I didn't Sh*t about what was best for me or anyone else for that matter. I was an arrogant idiot is what I was and I got WAY more unexpected "surprise" excitement then I EVER bargained for.
ReplyDeleteI think it's just about changing...I changed when I had to change or I was going to die. I was no freakin' hero or special person...on the contrary, I didn't change one second before I HAD to change or die. It was a real easy decision by that point in time...
Thanks for the comment. Just read your post this morning about you may have to move...I sure hope it all works out man, PEACE!